It’s been a while since I’ve had the opportunity to write anything that wasn’t work related in some way. This happens, work takes over and I set aside all the enjoyable things I do so I can make ends meet. I forgo the few hours of daily writing for a few long hours of work and then the days pass into weeks, then on to months. Suddenly, my stories are just whispers of legend, long forgotten in my mind, but bits and pieces surface as a reminder that those words long to be on paper and the legends cry to be reborn.
Today, I set aside time, juggled my schedule and sat before the keyboard. Words flow into sentences, sentences form paragraphs, and paragraphs fill a page, then two and three. I miss this time where I live in the life of characters spawned for imagination, my imagination.
For the first time in a long while, I am not handing myself the above card. It feels good.
Photo by Unknown, Stolen from Internet.
A Sunday Evening Post
It’s been awhile since I’ve been here. I’ve been letting my life run things for a bit, taking me in all sorts of directions but its time to change that. My need to write is always there, poking me as I try to sleep every night. I keep ignoring it for other things or I’m writing but just not on my blogs.
With this change, I’ve decided to stir things up a bit. First, I’m returning my God of Nothing blog back to its original format, an opinion blog, where I can sound off on anything I feel like sounding off on. So anything goes, Life, the Universe, and Everything (Thank you Douglas Adams, I miss you!) Hopefully, you will find it entertaining and thought-provoking.
I will keep some of the blog posts on God of Nothing that pertain to writing, my favorite poem from April R. Denton and the guest posts from Julianne Snow, one of my favorite writers. There will be some posts removed, mostly any of my fiction as that may eventually be moved to my Wolf Scott Blog.
Secondly, my Wolf Scott blog will continue to be more personal and geared more towards my writing as an author. It will include snippets and news of my current projects, some guest posts from other writers and authors, and perhaps some reviews.
Look for more frequent posts as I get back into the swing of things. And as always, thank you for reading and please feel free to say a little something about each post you read.
Photo by Wolf Scott, Sapporo, Perfection Sound, CA
The keys to happiness…
It seems it’s been forever since I was able to sit down and write something, anything. CARMA is under a foot of dust, and my blogs have been a wasteland of emptiness. This new job in the real world is wonderful but it keeps me all too busy and all too far away from my worlds. I’ve fallen down and finding it hard to climb my way out of this hole that keeps me away from my passion, writing. I need to set aside real time to sit and write, even if it’s only a few paragraphs a night.
My personal life, my online life, and everything in between have plummeted into obscurity. I find myself wondering how the hell I let this happen. What happened to my focus? Or rather, why did I change my focus? It’s all very simple really. I was seduced by the work, the ability to be back in the workforce, productive again. Unfortunately, I enjoy my work and I let it take over, but time to get back to the writing, back to what makes me happiest.
Never let the reality take away the worlds you live in, write them down, word by word until they become the stories that we can all enjoy…
Photo by Wolf Scott, Keys to Happiness, Perfection Sound, CA
Skies Afire - Carlsbad at Sunset
Well, almost. I’m not going back to Encinitas, but not far away and still on the coast in Del Mar. My friend Janna would call it close enough. Its been a bumpy and long road, this unemployment thing, this living with family thing, this craziness that I call Hillbillyland. Then only to find employment after I’ve relocated to Hillbillyland. It’s kind of funny.
Getting back hasn’t been as easy as I would have liked but I’m almost there. I’ve lost a few things but most things can always be replaced. Others, well perhaps certain things just aren’t meant to be held for too long.
I’m almost completely packed and ready with everything in storage until next weekend. Unfortunately, I don’t get the keys until Monday night, so the move is Saturday, bright and early. Still, I am excited to be sleeping on the floor of an empty condo. Though the best part, no more 4 hours a day on the road! I will actually have time to write and not just on napkins and notepads. Writing has been one of the casualties of living so far from work. I miss it the most. The ideas haven’t stopped, they hit me like raindrops in a winter thunderstorm, hard and fast. All I can do is write them down on whatever I can find and hope to get back to them. Now I’ll have the time to get back to them. I’ll be at home.
So a new chapter, a new book in the life of me. I am ready for it all!
Photo by Wolf Scott, Skies Afire Carlsbad at Sunset, Carlsbad, CA
It’s an odd thought now but just one month ago I was unemployed and had been so for quite some time. I had become accustomed to the days running into one another for so long that I often didn’t even know what day it was. Time was irrelevant to me. I had no set schedule, no place to be and no one to answer to. Just as odd, is how quickly it all came back to me once I rejoined the workforce. Now time is ever present and again I find myself watching the clock, the seconds ticking away until my time is my own. That looking forward to the weekend thing that we all feel when we are working long hours during the week.
For the first time in several years, I got off work and actually went out for some start-the-weekend-right fun. With the wonderful company of my new co-worker and friend Cassie, it was a wonderful evening of sushi, sake, and great conversation. Cassie introduced me to unfiltered sake and I must tell you it was a sweet tasting drink I highly recommend. And if you are in the San Diego area, make a stop at Sushi Deli. The wait was a little long because it is so popular, but well worth it especially if you are hanging out at the bar.
Being back in the daily grind has it’s moments, but its nice to have that rewarding “me time” again, looking forward to the weekend and actually doing something other than staring at my computer screen all weekend until I pick up my daughter. Thanks to my new friend Cassie for sharing this evening with me and showing me that unfiltered sake is amazing.
Photograph by Wolf Scott, Edamame, Sushi Deli, San Diego, CA
So here it is, another late evening. I’m finally getting to my blog. It’s been awhile. I’ve been so busy with the new job, the very long drive to and from work, and the most important bit of being a dad.
I miss writing. My novel is sitting on the proverbial shelf collecting dust bunnies the size of rhinos. I know that I’ll be getting back to it once I move closer to work and am not spending my time driving all day but for now my creativity is lost to scribbles and notes written in hurried fashion. I keep my notes cataloged for transcription later but I want to get to it.
I guess life is funny that way…you want to go this way and it pulls you that way. For now, I will have to be satisfied with my few paragraphs every other night. Where’s the time go?
Photograph by Wolf Scott, Liberty Truck, Liberty, Maine
Life is sometimes an uphill climb, I guess that’s why I’m the God of Nothing. However, there are times when the slope is not quite so steep, when things are going your way and deep down inside you get that fuzzy high. That’s where I am now. The new job, new friends, special people that enhance my life. Yes, there are still those things that just are not quite right with my life but I’m finding a bit of happiness and frankly, I’m enjoying it. It’s a good feeling to have the right people around you, people that are not toxic to your spirit, people that love you and support you. So if you are fighting an uphill climb, surround yourself with those people that will support and love you. It makes life so much better. Thank you to all my friends! Jules, Dawn, Dan & Michelle, Julianne, Andi, Jim, Zeny and most of all Gabi…
Photograph by Wolf Scott, San Luis Rey Mission, Sunken Garden, Oceanside, CA
So, I’ve finished my forth day of full time, permanent employment and I must say after so long a forced vacation, I am pleased and happy to be there. My job is of course in the technology sector, which is my second love and helps pay those bills. However, I am missing all my writing time, though, so this weekend will be devoted to time well spent at my keyboard. While I have to play catch-up on my novel, I am also thinking of submitting a short for Ring of Fire Publishing. The fine people over there are publishing an anthology in early July, 2012 and I’m thinking I’d like to see one of my shorts in it. I also encourage all of you to do the same. No laying about like Leo here, time to get to work.
Write a little everyday…
Photograph by Wolf Scott, Lion Napping, San Diego Wild Animal Park, San Diego, CA
Oceanside Pier at Sunset
On Monday I go back to work. The first time in over a year. It will be nice to get back into the workforce, part of the employed ranks. No more working for myself trying to make ends meet. It sounds so wonderful and I am thankful to be able to work again. All that said, I am a little saddened by the fact that I will be losing time spent with the little one. My writing time will be more than cut in half. Then there is that Monday jaunt to the coast to see the ocean. The little one likes that, and I like it. Yes, I’ll even miss that long drive over the Ortega Highway.
In a few months, I’ll move back down to San Diego and life will go back to what it was, minus a few things. Though I can’t help but wonder, what if? And, no I can’t be pragmatic about it, I’m going to miss these things. I will just have to find another way to keep them in my life, the hours with the little one, the writing, and especially those day trips to the ocean.
Photo by Wolf Scott, Oceanside Pier at Sunset, Oceanside, CA
After 609 days of the longest and most costly vacation, called unemployment, I have ever had, I have finally secured a job within my field. I start working again on Monday, February 27, 2012. To say that I am happy is a colossal understatement. I am so excited I’m surprised I haven’t fallen over in absolute shock. There were days when I was ready to just walk out into the ether and disappear in the darkness but I held in there and kept chipping away at the job boards, sending out countless resumes and applying for thousands of jobs.
During my unemployment, I rediscovered my writings and set forth on a new journey, writing and working to complete a novel. While I have written most of my life, I have never completed a novel, short stories and other writing endeavors yes, but never a novel. I have met some incredible people along the way too, people that share my enthusiasm and help support my goals of completing my work in progress. I am thankful to have them in my live and the generosity they have so freely given to help me reach my goals.
Its been a long road to get here but I can see the rest stop up ahead and a new town to settle down in. No, every care in the world hasn’t disappeared, but I do feel at ease now. Tomorrow will be a better day and each day that follows will bring me closer to my goals.
So, I will unfortunately have less time to write now, but I will not stop. I will not give up on this dream…
Photo by Wolf Scott, Into Infinity, Death Valley, CA